Clutching his hands, a young man looked up from where he was kneeling, and akin to a benediction that invokes the divine, he became a believer. A true atheist going back to the whole of his life, what was the turning point, defining moment that took this young man under its brilliant wings and made him a converter of religion? In discovering the true nature of a person’s chosen stance in Christianity, one should look into the everlasting struggle of humanity’s inner angels and demons.
As we grow up from childhood, we are taught manners, we obey rules, and we learn to react a certain way in consternation. So in a way, belief, in general, is also given to you without the consent of your would-be knowledge of faith in the future. And faith, as in Christianity, gives us hope, trust and a promise of exoneration of past evil deeds and malevolent sins through deliverance. Then I ask, in hindsight, is a routinely sinful person free of punishment if he so proclaims himself to be a true believer of God?
This person, in retrospect, is what most people called a hypocrite. Religious hypocrites run rampant in our society. Those are the ones in churches with their heads hold high and look right through you as if you don’t exist. Basically, a hypocrite, per Oxford dictionary, is someone who has “a pretense of having religious beliefs or principles that one does not really possess.”
I have a firm believe that this behavior stems greatly from the enormous Christian knowledge and the infinite teachings of the word of God that one carries on the shoulders during his life; like a burden. He faces unbearable challenges in life. Finally, the pressure tips over and in a sudden disobedience and the human nature’s desire to adapt, he does things he shouldn’t be doing. Overtime, he becomes sort of a soulless person. But you don’t have to be a hypocrite to be soulless. Perhaps you are an atheist or an agnostic who questions the existence of religions. But how does one modulate a life without the comfort, trust of a higher power?
The great philosopher Frederick Nietzsche, whom many believed to be an atheist, was once quoted as saying, “In Christianity, neither morality nor religion come into contact with reality at any point.” What he meant by that is that God simply does not exit in life. That He is a nonevent. That He can not exist. Nevertheless, in spite of the atheistic teachings, there will be times when a person reaches the deepest of depth and the darkest of the night during his life and there’s little in the face of reality that will grant him salvation.
The young man, in full surrender at the fringe of his psychological existence, was now in God’s hands. He admitted defeat and laid down his gauntlet, and in his confession he bellowed out, “Please, God, save me. Please, set me free. Please, take it from me.” With that, in a transcendence of soul and light, he gained complete realization of the fact that the impossibility can happen, that one plus one does not always equal to two. He learned to achieve the symbiosis of good and evil by letting the angels in to combat his inner demons. For the past ten days he was soulless. But now, blinded by floods of tears, his spirit was uplifted and above all, had found solace. He became a believer.
That young man was me.
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